Following the Signs and Synchronicities

 Welp. 

Ascending the Mountain Spotify Playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/09iy40e201g2rqYzqfJymZ?si=9gTT58vOTcGRnvAFy0iPjA

Where to start, where to start...

Ecstatic dance and the 1,000 suns. I did this dance, got sick again fell asleep and had a very powerful dream. I woke and the first thought was " I need to share this with my pen pal".

 I met my pen pal when I was 20 and he was 21 at a party. My friend came to my house, picked me up, scolded me for wearing my shitty painting clothes since "you never know who you might meet!" I don't remember if either of us talked. He had a ponytail and I drew his hair. I asked him if he wanted to be pen pals so we exchanged emails. 

We wrote friendly interesting sometimes very brief emails. Sometimes just once a year to check if we were still alive. A tether between us. 

His life took him to an ashram for a few years. Mine took me to the Bay Area to study network engineering.

I woke from that powerful dream. I searched for his email since I hadn't written in a year. I typed it out and said "you will know what this means, I am sure of it. All of it" Something super cryptic and weird for reasons I don't even know. I just felt it. He wrote back and offered to facetime since things may have just gotten real. I wasn't sure what this meant. I was giddy all day and couldn't hide my grin. I searched him and found a jail record. Same jail I went to, close to same reason. Damn. I couldn't fault someone for doing the same shit as me. 

   When we facetimed I was so nervous I dumped an entire tumbler of water. We each had our tarot decks. I kept thinking, this is my penpal? How have I not ever seen him before? We talked about the most interesting things. The ways we thought about the world, Love, energy and things that I always keep to myself. How I pray before I paint. How as a teen I tried to kill myself and afterward made a promise to the Universe that I would live a life of service. Whatever it asked of me. 

  He asked pointed questions and I found myself sweating profusely at sharing spiritual musings and how the Universe works with me. We started an agenda, writing projects, talked about our hopes. I was stunned. We asked each other "who are we to one another?!" I was in a peaceful relationship. I was struck by a deep loneliness around that time and longed for women friends. I prayed constantly for women companions. I told him "You are not what I prayed for". Who is he? 

 We started a playlist. We call each other Beasties. We created a long distance world of our own. 

 I was told this thing that was happening was the Devil by someone close to me. Temptation. Tempting what? A deeper spiritual connection? Synchronicities that kept saying "Go for this!" Do I not deserve to find Love and happiness in a relationship?

 The synchronicities are what got me. We ended up in the Czech Republic for a week so I can look for where I want my property one day. One day. I told him, if he gets in the way of how God and the Universe works in my life we can't work. I need to intuitively feel my way through, using my heart as a guide, following the signs. I was hesitant and worried but I knew that trip would be a deciding factor of how we worked together. 

One thing that popped into my awareness prior to leaving, (I say from guides from the other side) was "You both must Play!" I told him these instructions I was given. 

 The days unfolded in these magical ways its hard to start on just one thing. We were backpacking and exploring. In one city, our bus kept passing us. The bus we needed to get across town. I said "What in the actual fuck!" I was like, ok, the Universe wants us to stop. We stopped had a nice coffee and smoke as rain drizzled down.     

   We were delayed. But I chose to not be caught up in the annoyance and instead calmly looked about. Relax and think in the pause. I watched the gentle hum of the small city life and felt Love. When we finally caught our bus and arrived in the next town we followed music we heard on the street. There. Right there on the corner was a dance class! We joined and that class revealed communication skills and roles we needed to work on. Like children we had to learn to cooperate and find laughter. The love between us felt pure and naive. 

  I would suggest places to eat on a whim and they were excellent! We decided my nose and gut were spot on. I love eating good food. 

  We were invited to dance at a club after class but we needed to eat first. We ate at a place and sat looking out our receipt. At the top were numbers that written with numbers. I was like, these numbers are serious! While dancing at the club we became annoyed with one another and had a fight. We left and I felt exasperated on our walk. I stopped and bent myself over taking a very deep breath to calm down. He pointed at the door numbers I stopped in front of, the same as the receipt. I looked past him and on the wall was 2 words graffitied in English- "Play". I was awe struck. I said "Omg, Look!!!" the universe was like yall being too serious!! 

 I said I'll race you back to our place. Neither of us knew where our place was. lol. We literally just took off running through the street until we broke into laughter and play. Follow the instructions. Follow the signs. They are all around. 

 We had a "fancy" day where we both dressed up hella nice. Long dark green sequined dress I thrifted and tailored. Him in a dress shirt and vest. We danced in down town Prague at a music festival. A little girl was enamored with my dress and bright red lips. Her parents asked if she could get a picture with me. I felt like a Disney princess. Me just being me was enough to bring joy to a little girls heart. My child self was seen as well. My child self that often wore dirty clothes and was hungry, was now dancing to beautiful music, with a beautiful man in a beautiful city. My life felt beautiful. People took videos and pictures of us dancing in every city. Pure magic.

 We started to play a game of follow the "22s". There were actual signs in Prague of 22 and we followed them into a park until we heard music! As we approached the source we saw it was an event. A wedding. The car parked out front had a bouquet that matched his shirt. The license plate had a 22. We went in and danced and since we were both so fancy dressed no one said anything. Did we really crash a wedding? We had a blast for a few songs and quietly left. We watched fireworks on a bridge. 

Most of the days were like this. Signs and synchronicities unfolding before us. 

  We just kept following them and now we are moved into our new house in a more country setting in Utah. It happened as quick as I had the idea to look. As though it were planned all along. By who? Why? Why would the Universe be so concerned with my relationships and happiness? Why do all of my things fit so prefect in this house? We settled in less than a week. My plants and animals feeling relaxed and joyful. The move was hard but uneventful. Nothing "bad" happened. I'm replacing carpet with tile, working with plumbers on the needs of an older home etc. It all feels right.